Borderline Personality Disorder: A Survivor’s Story
A powerful story of a woman’s struggle with borderline personality disorder. Amy courageously unpacks her story and delivers a message of hope.
I was a very emotional child. I always wore my feelings on my sleeve, face and everyone around me knew what they were. I felt so deeply, and romanticized myself as a “dark writer” like Emily or Charlotte Bronte. How do you know that “things” are not normal when you have no yardstick to compare your life to others? I always judged other people’s outsides by my insides: I felt so horrible with no self-esteem, and everyone else was laughing, pretty, joyous, focused, respected by others, and popular. I managed to make the cut to be a 2-year member of a prestigious performing choral group my last 2 years of high school. Nothing since then has measured up to that accomplishment in my mind. (But, after much thought, I have found that 20+ years of sobriety from an addiction has merit, as well.)
At the age of 14, I found that alcohol gave me courage, vivaciousness, attractiveness. I did not actually drink alcoholically until I was about 22. When I drank, I did not feel the dull ache of my